For the Love of the Crazy
Saturday, July 28, 2012
Watching the Olympics While High
I am currently watching the 2nd night of the London 2012 Olympic Games! I watched most of the Opening Ceremony last night while I was super high! Watching the history of Great Britain was like watching a movie. It was super trippy. Then during the parade of nations (is that what it's called?) I fell asleep. So I got high tonight and decided to finish watching the opening ceremony and DAMN! Those doves riding bicycles??? Freaked me out! Ha! It was like watching ET! Oh I forgot to mention, I loved the whole Voldemort vs. Mary Poppins vs. Alice in Wonderland bit! It was absolutely psychotic! The fireworks at the end were absolutely amazing too! I just stared at it for what felt like an hour. So after watching the opening ceremony, I started to watch the women's volleyball game and it was hard to watch! The ball didn't look like it was moving, but was floating in the air over their heads. I couldn't watch it. It was too frustrating! The rowing was cool because it looks they are sliding along ice and not in water. It's so smooth and seamless with their rowing! I cannot write very well while high. Not sure how much I can write. Sean turned off the Olympics to watch Chris Hardwick? What the hell, people?
Saturday, June 02, 2012
Marriage Equality
I am here to say for once and for all, I fully support marriage equality in all its forms. God treats gay people like paper clips. He tries to form and mold these people into "becoming" straight again. No matter how hard you try, god, you can't get a paper clip to be completely straight! You know why? Because gay people were born that way and it is not a choice! A paper clip can't suddenly become straight! Stupid god and his stupidness. I also agree with polyamorous relationships. If you want to have 20 wives or 20 husbands or 20 wives AND husbands, that is YOUR prerogative! Love who you want to love and fuck who you want to fuck. Let people fuck whoever and however many people they want! AND let people be the gender they were MEANT to be despite their sexual organs! Stop treating these people like they are strange. Like they are not normal. It's not their fault they were born in the physiological body that doesn't match their inner self and gender. And playing with the opposite gender's toys as a child does not make them gay or suddenly the other gender. Let people be who they are!
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
Insecurity
Basically, I've figured it out. I'm insecure. Mainly, I'm insecure in my relationships with other people. I am not, however, insecure in my marriage. I feel very safe there. Unfortunately, I can pinpoint where the insecurity in my relationships (friendships) comes from. The person I believed I was closest to in the whole wide world as a teenager, my "BFF" for several years, caused this. She caused me to think I wasn't good enough. She made me think I could never be as pretty or smart or popular as she was. Later I come to find out, she kept me as such a close friend because I made her look more attractive in comparison when we were together. She was always leaps and bounds more beautiful than I was and I knew it. She treated me like I was beneath her. I kind of saw it, but I ignored it to keep the "closest" friendship I'd ever had.
I didn't believe that horrible friendship had affected me so negatively until the past few years. I realized that I was always weary of anybody who I deemed to be "leaps and bounds" more beautiful than me wanting to be my friend. It makes me nervous that they would want to be friends with someone as ugly and fat as me without having ulterior motives. I realize this is insane and I have made very close "BFF" friendships with beautiful people and I am very happy with those friendships. It's still hard though to get completely past my insecurity.
One fault of mine is that I trust people very quickly and very easily and then, as time wears on, I back away and lose some of that trust, especially if I feel that person does not trust me back. I'm scared of putting myself totally into a friendship and having the same thing happen to me again. That stupid bitch has made me paranoid that everyone who is even nice to me has some kind of ulterior motive! I also don't want to be pitied. I don't want to people to continue friendships with me when they don't even like me because they feel bad or something. Screw that. What I need is for people to be honest and then I wouldn't feel so paranoid! I may be hurt, but at least I wouldn't be wasting my time or theirs anymore!
I'm a very honest person. I will tell you the truth if you ask me a question. I will probably give too many details about something that you don't care about. I feel people hide things too much. I'd so much rather know something than it being hidden from me. My husband likes to hide shit. It makes me angry. The thing he is hiding has never made me as angry or as hurt as the hiding itself. I guess I have such a problem with this "hiding" thing because I do not do it myself. I don't hide things. I will say exactly what happened. I don't understand the need to hide things. It doesn't solve any problems.
Completely off topic, but I hate my job. Hate it. I work at a place that treats you like you are in fucking high school. Why do I stay there? Right now, the only thing that keeps me from walking out is the friendships I've made there. If they decided to get up and go, I would be right there with them and it would be a mass exodus! But, at what point is that not enough anymore? At what point do I feel secure enough in my abilities to find another job?
I just realized this insecurity thing is not just in my relationships. I'm insecure in my shitty ass job. I'm definitely insecure with how I look. I'm insecure with talking to people in general. I'm insecure with my political knowledge. I'm insecure with my handwriting. I'm insecure when I post status updates on FB and wonder if people will like it or comment. What the HELL happened to me?? Even though I've always been bigger and unattractive, I at least had some shred of self-confidence. Where did it go?? I guess I can't blame my insecurity on anyone, but myself. However, I need someone (Other than my husband) to tell me how important I am to them. I can't keep being the person that gives and gives with nothing in return. I need to be told that I matter. I have to feel that SOMEONE cares about me. I just tweeted asking someone to tell me I am important and I matter. I love my friends :) Now, it's time to work on this insecurity.
I didn't believe that horrible friendship had affected me so negatively until the past few years. I realized that I was always weary of anybody who I deemed to be "leaps and bounds" more beautiful than me wanting to be my friend. It makes me nervous that they would want to be friends with someone as ugly and fat as me without having ulterior motives. I realize this is insane and I have made very close "BFF" friendships with beautiful people and I am very happy with those friendships. It's still hard though to get completely past my insecurity.
One fault of mine is that I trust people very quickly and very easily and then, as time wears on, I back away and lose some of that trust, especially if I feel that person does not trust me back. I'm scared of putting myself totally into a friendship and having the same thing happen to me again. That stupid bitch has made me paranoid that everyone who is even nice to me has some kind of ulterior motive! I also don't want to be pitied. I don't want to people to continue friendships with me when they don't even like me because they feel bad or something. Screw that. What I need is for people to be honest and then I wouldn't feel so paranoid! I may be hurt, but at least I wouldn't be wasting my time or theirs anymore!
I'm a very honest person. I will tell you the truth if you ask me a question. I will probably give too many details about something that you don't care about. I feel people hide things too much. I'd so much rather know something than it being hidden from me. My husband likes to hide shit. It makes me angry. The thing he is hiding has never made me as angry or as hurt as the hiding itself. I guess I have such a problem with this "hiding" thing because I do not do it myself. I don't hide things. I will say exactly what happened. I don't understand the need to hide things. It doesn't solve any problems.
Completely off topic, but I hate my job. Hate it. I work at a place that treats you like you are in fucking high school. Why do I stay there? Right now, the only thing that keeps me from walking out is the friendships I've made there. If they decided to get up and go, I would be right there with them and it would be a mass exodus! But, at what point is that not enough anymore? At what point do I feel secure enough in my abilities to find another job?
I just realized this insecurity thing is not just in my relationships. I'm insecure in my shitty ass job. I'm definitely insecure with how I look. I'm insecure with talking to people in general. I'm insecure with my political knowledge. I'm insecure with my handwriting. I'm insecure when I post status updates on FB and wonder if people will like it or comment. What the HELL happened to me?? Even though I've always been bigger and unattractive, I at least had some shred of self-confidence. Where did it go?? I guess I can't blame my insecurity on anyone, but myself. However, I need someone (Other than my husband) to tell me how important I am to them. I can't keep being the person that gives and gives with nothing in return. I need to be told that I matter. I have to feel that SOMEONE cares about me. I just tweeted asking someone to tell me I am important and I matter. I love my friends :) Now, it's time to work on this insecurity.
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Let's see what a difference 5 years makes........
I see: Skye sleeping on the couch next to me and Family Guy on the TV.
I need: Money....Lots and LOTS of money!
I find: Life to be rather difficult when you become an adult.
I want: A LOT of things, but mostly, I just want to live comfortably without fear of not having enough money to buy food or pay the rent.
I have: A wonderful husband and a happy dog and a crappy job.
I wish: I could make people do the things I want them to do. Sadly, I cannot force people to do things against their will.
I love: My family, friends, Sean, and Mark Wahlberg. (The answer to this has not changed, but I would like to add Skye to the list.)
I hate: Stupid People (This hasn't changed either. Although, my definition of "stupid people" has broadened.)
I miss: My big bro!
I fear: Being abducted by aliens. (Still the same answer)
I feel: Happy with the decisions I've made in my life in the past year. I feel I know myself a lot better than I used to and I'm no longer lying to myself about things.
I hear: Family Guy on the TV.
I smell: The Bath & Body Works Wallflower I plugged in yesterday after finding it on the shelf above the dryer.
I crave: Knowledge of the truth.
I search: For answers that will never be given.
I wonder: Will Sean and I ever be able to have children?
I regret: Being mean to the people I love and care about. (This hasn't changed either. I really need to work on that!)
When was the last time you ...
Smiled?: Just now when I thought about eating Frosted Flakes for dinner.
Laughed?: Reading a message on FB.
Cried?: Sad crying......a week ago on the anniversary of my dad's death. I was at work and when the time of his death came around (3:45p), I got teary-eyed.
Bought something?: I bought a new vacuum and showerhead at Walmart yesterday.
Danced?: I think I did a little dance at Marie's house on Friday night. I always do some sort of dance while I'm there.
Were sarcastic?: I'm never sarcastic! ;) (Same answer....)
Kissed someone?: I guess I kissed Sean at some point today. Haha!
Talked to an ex?: Several years ago. I have no use to talk to any ex anymore.
Had a nightmare?: This past week. I have nightmares all the time! Always have.
A Last time for everything ...
Last book you read: In full? Night. Currently Reading? Take the Cannoli.
Last movie you saw: I watched Going the Distance and Kick-Ass today.
Last song you heard: Rolling in the Deep by Adele. I'm not sure it the "last" song I heard, but it's the song I've heard the most this weekend.
Last thing you had to drink: Kroger Water! OH yeah! (Sad, but this is the same answer)
Last time you showered: Yesterday. I was lazy today.
Last thing you ate: I just ate my Frosted Flakes!
Do You ...
Smoke?: No. Ew!
Do drugs?: Does once in the last six years count as "doing" drugs? Probably not.
Have sex?: Occasionally.....Poor Sean. Hahaha!
Sleep with stuffed animals?: No. I sleep with Sean who could be considered a stuffed animal.
Live in the moment?: I'm trying to be more that way than in the past. I can be very spontaneous! But on the contrary, I like to make plans. I'm a confusing girl.
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: I have a husband!
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: Yes....I live inside this gigantic teddy bear (This has not changed either)
Play an instrument?: I played trumpet in middle school and my dad taught me how to play the drums and I can play the keyboard with my right hand (Same answer.....)
Believe there is life on other planets?: It's stupid to believe we are all alone, but I don't think there is other life in this universe. And if there was, I'm afraid of them coming to Earth and abducting me.
Remember your first love?: Yeah of course I remember him. He was my first love after all.
Still love him/her?: Uh, no.
Read the newspaper?: I buy the Sunday paper for the coupons and I read news through FB, Twitter and other news websites.
Have any gay or lesbian friends?: I do and they are wonderful people! I love the gays! :)
Believe in miracles?: It's hard to say no because I believed myself to be a miracle all my life, but miracles are just not logical. I believe that things happen that people can't explain and that's ok, but it doesn't have to be labeled as a miracle.
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: I think it is possible, but you have to truly love the person you are with, which I do!
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: Hmmm......I can sometimes be tolerant. Other times...NOT AT ALL! (This is the same answer.)
Consider love a mistake?: No way.....you can sometimes think that, but it's never a mistake for real. (Same answer......)
Like the taste of alcohol?: After I discovered the wonderful and magical Margarita, I do! Beer is STILL disgusting though!
Have a favorite candy?: I try not to eat that much candy anymore. I still love my gummy things though.
Believe in astrology?: I find astrology entertaining. (Same answer)
Believe in magic?: I am always skeptical (Same answer)
Believe in God?: I believe that we cannot know whether or not there is a God. In short, the answer is No. (This took many, many years for me to actually admit, but seriously, it's difficult to believe in some big dude in the sky)
Pray?: Who am I going to pray to? Sean? LOL
Go to church?: No and I'm happier without it.
Have any secrets?: As much of an open book I am, I am full of secrets. You don't know me!
Have any pets: A beautiful mutt named Skye and I guess all the cats that have sex underneath my house.
Do well in school?: I am no longer in school.
Go to or plan to go to college?: I graduated from Georgia State University in 2007!
Have a major?: My major was Sociology.
Talk to strangers who instant message you?: I don't do the whole instant messenger thing anymore. None of my friends really use them anymore. I occasionally use FB Chat, but I only chat with FB friends on that.
Wear hats?: Eh.....no. I might wear one of Sean's hats if I'm having a greasy hair day.
Have any piercings?: I've had my ears pierced now about 5 times.....I'm going to stop trying so the answer is no...I don't have any. (Sadly, this answer has not changed)
Have any tattoos?: Nope and I don't really plan on ever getting one. (Same answer)
Hate yourself?: Naw.....I love myself. There are certain things about myself that I don't like, but I don't hate myself as a whole. (I still agree with this answer)
Have an obsession?: I obsess over everything that I find cool. It's not as expensive a problem as it used to be, but Facebook has definitely been an obsession for awhile now.
Have a secret crush?: Nope.....
Do they know yet?: If they did, it wouldn't be secret. Duh!
Collect anything?: I used to collect DVDs, but I have ran out of money. (Sadly, this is the same answer, as well)
Have a best friend?: My permanent and forever best friends are Sean and Bekkah (my sister). Everybody else that I've considered or consider a best friend are "Best Friends For Right Now" type of deals and that's okay!
Wish on stars?: Very occassionally.....I have to be in that type of mood (same answer)
Like your handwriting?: Well growing up I always thought I had horrible handwriting, but people always complimented me on having such awesome handwriting. Soooo I guess I like it now. (same answer)
Have any bad habits?: I still bite my nails and my habit of revealing way too much information about myself to people that don't need to know.
Care about looks?: Sort of but it's not that important to me. It's becoming more important to me and I'm not sure how I feel about that.
Boy/girlfriend's looks?: My husband is a cutie patootie!
Friends and other people?: My friends are very different in their looks. So I really don't care how they look. Why would I care how my friends look?
Believe in witches?: I AM a witch! MUHAHAHAHA! Just kidding....
Believe in Satan?: If there is no God, there is no Satan.
Believe in ghosts?: Yes......I'm scared of ghosts. Although, can there truly be ghosts if there is no afterlife?
001) What time are you starting this?: 9:29 pm
002) Name?: Sheena
003) Date of birth?: March 3
004) Sex?: female
005) Height?: 5'5"
006) Eye color?: Blue
007) Weight?: Nunya Business!
008) Location?: Nunya!
009) Where were you born?: Georgia
010) Have you ever failed a grade?: nope
011) If you have, what grade did you fail? nope
012) Do you have crush on someone?: Yes
013) Do you have a bf/gf?: I have a husband!
014) If so, what is their name: SEAN!
015) How long have you been together?: A total of six years!
016) What are you wearing right now?: Pajamas that I've been in ALL DAY!
017) Would you have sex before marriage?: Magically, I didn't. Hardest. Thing. Ever.
018) Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers?: Ew never! They were all old or female!
020) Do you smoke?: no
021) Do you drink?: Yes...I love me a margarita and my special jello!
022) Are you ghetto?: Sometimes I act sooo ghetto and sometimes I'm just another white girl (And the way I originally answered this question assumed that "ghetto" was a race issue. Shame on me for that one)
023) Are you a player?: Nope. Not at all.
024) What are your favorite colors?: Purple and Blue
025) What is your favorite animal?: Koala Bear
026) Do you have any birthmarks?: I have one in the shape of a heart on my inner right thigh
027) Have you ever gotten your ass kicked?: Yeah, but I kicked her butt right back
028) Who are your best friends? Sean and Bekkah. I answered this more fully earlier.
029) Have you ever beat someone up? Yes.......I felt bad about it too
030) Who do you talk to most on the phone?: I don't really talk much on the phone. I guess Marie and Kim Gray. That's sad bc I really don't talk much to them over the phone.
031) Have you ever been slapped?: Yes
032) Do you get online a lot?: Everyday! Pretty much the entire time from the point I get home from work until bedtime.
037) How easily do you trust people? WAYYYY too easily. I am too trusting to a fault. But I also have paranoia that contradicts that statement.
038) Have you ever lied to your best friends?: Not any major lies.....just like stupid little ones that don't matter much
039) Do you have a secret people would be surprised knowing?: Depends on the people! My choice to leave my church is major one that MANY people would be surprised to know. I wonder if any of those people will read this.
040) Would you ever sky dive?: HECK YEAH I would! That's like asking Pamela Anderson if she's ever had any work done. Not sure I would again though. Too much to risk.
041) Do you like to dance?: Yeah, but I have no rhythm
068) Have you ever been out of state?: Why of course I have
069) Do you like to travel?: I would like to do it more than I do right now. Since we do not have any children, we should be traveling more.
070) Have you ever been expelled from school?: Never
071) Have you ever been suspended from school?: No, but I have had in-school-suspension
071) Do you want to get out of your hometown?: I really SHOULD! I live a mile from where I grew up.
072) Are you spoiled?: I'm about as spoiled as a poor child can be. I never got everything I wanted, but I was waited on hand and foot growing up. My mommy loves me!
073) Are you a brat?: Only to my sister and Sean.
074) Have you ever been dumped?: No......I'm surprised I haven't
075) Have you ever gotten high?: How am I supposed to answer that question without incriminating myself? But yes, yes I have!
076) What's your favorite drink?: Dr. Pepper and Frozen Strawberry Margarita!
077) Do you like Snapple?: No
078) Do you drink a lot of water?: Yes I love ice water
079) What toothpaste do you use?: Colgate Total Plus Whitening
080) Do you have a cell phone or pager?: I have a cell phone
081) Do you have a curfew?: I am an adult living in my own house. No, I don't have a curfew. Sean doesn't even call when I'm out late, but my friends' husbands are always calling them.
082) Who do you look up to?: I still look up to my wonderful friends, but for completely different reasons!
083) Are you a role model?: I think I'm awesome, but I'm sure there are several people who do not agree.
085) What name brand do you wear the most?: I don't know.....Old Navy jeans?
086) What kind of jewelry do you wear?: I wear my wedding and engagement rings and that's about it
087) What do you have pierced?: Nothing
088) What do you want pierced?: Ears for the 20th time
089) Do you like taking pictures?: Yeah it's way fun
090) Do you like getting your picture taken?: Yeah.....I'm such a cheeser
091) Do you have a tan?: Yeah all natural baby!
092) Do you get annoyed easily?: Yes and especially when a certain co-worker doesn't know that it is incredibly annoying to pop and smack her gum.
093) Have you ever started a rumor?: Yes unfortunately and I felt REALLY REALLY horrible about it....I cried for days. (This situation was a LONG time ago and still applies as the only time I started a rumor)
094) Do you have your own phone/phone line?: I have my own cell phone and I guess my own house line that we don't answer.
095) Do you have your own pool?: No
096) Do you have any siblings?: a sister named Bekkah and a brother named Eric
097) Do you prefer boxers or briefs?: I would prefer Sean to wear boxers, but he wears the magic underwears.
098) Have you ever been played?: Yes I believe I have so I ended it before it went any further than it did
099) Have you ever played anyone?: Not that I'm aware of
100) Do you get along with your parents?: Yeah for the most part...my dad annoys the crap out of me, but I love him (This makes me sad to read this. I miss my dad and I wish I was nicer to him)
102) How do you vent your anger?: I usually get really red in the face and start screaming and crying.....then I'll get in my car and drive somewhere (This is still mostly accurate, but I have begun to be quiet when I'm angry now.)
103) Have you ever run away?: Naw not for real.....I always pretended like I did though
104) Have you ever been fired from a job?: Nope I've always quit. I did get laid off from the last one, but that's not the same as being fired.
105) Do you even have a job?: Yes at CTS High School. Seriously, this place might as well be HS. You are treated like a 12 year old.
106) Do you daydream a lot?: A little, but not nearly as much as I used to. I mainly daydream at work.
107) Do you have a lot of exes?: Just like 2 or 3.
108) Do you run your mouth?: I can.......so yeah sometimes
109) What do you want a tattoo of?: none
110) What do you have a tattoo of?: none
111) What are your favorite flowers?: Orchids
112) What does your ex bf/gf look like?: First one.....scrawny kid with red hair and like no tan whatsoever.........Second one.....kinda tallish,light brownish hair,pretty eyes,a little goatee,cute computer dude.....I swear I'm leaving a couple people out......they must have not mattered much
113) What does your most recent crush look like?: Like Sean *LOL*
114) Have you ever been bitched out?: Yeah of course Who hasn't?
115) When was the last time you bitched someone out?: I bitched Sean out today, but that's normal.
116) Are you rude? Not knowingly
117) What was the last compliment you received?: Sean thinks I'm beautiful. (And this still applies 5 years later)
118) Do you like getting dirty?: definitely not....I don't wash my hands every 5 minutes, but I really hate to get my hands dirty
119) Is your bellybutton an innie or outie?: DEEP innie! you can fit your whole fist in there
120) Are you flexible?: Not one bit
121) What is your heritage?: English, German, Irish
122) What is your lucky number?: 3, 33, 303
123) What does your hair look like right now?: Rather greasy from not being washed today.
124) Could you ever be a vegetarian?: I am currently a vegetarian. Why eat an animal when you have the option not to?
125) When was your last real heartbreak?: I'm not sure. I guess the last time was when my dad died in 07.
126) Describe your looks?: How about no and say we did? :)
127) If you had to completely dye your hair it'd be what color?: I need to do that. I guess light brown, but not the same stuff I used last time.
128) Would you ever date someone younger than you?: I have in the past, but I think I'm good to go right now.
129) Would you ever date someone older than you?: Sean is four years older, but acts 14 years younger
130) When was the last time you were drunk?: My 27th birthday! Mexico Lindo margaritas made me feel goooooooood!
131) When was the last time you went on a date?: We went on a 5 year anniversary trip to Chattanooga last weekend, so I'm going to count that!
135) Have you ever had an eating disorder?: No but when I was a teenager I always thought it would be cool if I did. I could never do it though.
136) Do you have one now?: no
137) How many rings until you answer the phone?: I never answer the home phone and my cell phone doesn't have rings.
138) Have you ever been skinny dipping?: In a hot tub! Many different hot tubs actually, but never a pool!
139) If yes, when was the last time?: Ummmm, whenever the last time we went to Gatlinburg was.
140) Do you look more like your mother or father?: My mama...I look like my dad too
141) Do you cry a lot?: I cry everytime someone makes me laugh hard.
142) Do you ever cry to get your way?: No
143) If you had to amputate one limb, what would it be?: Left arm right below the elbow
144) What phrase do you use most when on the phone?: Yeah dude
145) Are you the romantic type?: Lol....sadly, no. I'm trying to work on that!
146) Have you ever been chased by cops?: No
147) What do you like most about your body?: My eyes
148) What do you like least about your body?: My Butt
150) When was the last time you threw up?: A couple of weeks ago from coughing too much. It wasn't bad though.
151) In the opposite sex, do you prefer blondes or brunettes?: Blonde hair, blue eyed guys named Sean are HOT!
152) What do the shoes you last wore look like?: Skechers Shape Ups.....they're blue and gray with some pink
153) Do you ever wear shirts to show your belly?: Never
154) What about cleavage?: Sometimes....but I am very modest
155) Is your best friend a virgin?: Nope!
158) What color are your underwear right now?: Black, the opposite of white.
159) What theme does your room have?: My room does not have a theme. My room has the theme of lacking any kind of decoration.
160) What size shoe do you wear?: 8 - 8.5
161) What jewelry are you wearing now?: wedding rings
162) What is your screen name on AIM?: TyphoidWeave (weird name and I don't even remember the pw anymore)
163) Would you pick a wedgie in public?: Yeah, sadly, I have
164) How are you feeling right now?: A little tired, but not as tired as I normally am this late on a work night.
165) When was the last time you were at a party?: Hmmm a party........I guess it depends on what you consider a party.
166) Have you ever given a lapdance?: Nope There is no way I could do that (This is still true, although, I have tried and I got all self-conscious)
167) What do you sleep in?: t-shirt and basketball shorts
168) Has there ever been a rumor spread about you?: Yes and I really need to stop caring.
171) Would you marry for money?: I say no and I didn't.
172) What do you drive?: We have an 04 Saturn Ion and my 99 Honda Civic. I tend to drive the Ion more.
173) Have you ever given or received roadhead?: can't say that I have....and I can't believe I just answered that question.
174) Are you more of a mama or daddy's child?: Mama's Girl totally
177) When was the last time you cried in school?: I don't think I ever cried in college. Sometime in high school I guess.
179) For two million dollars, would you pose for Playboy?: HECK NOOOOO. Besides, who would pay ME 2 mil to do Playboy?
180) What time are you finishing this?: 10:13 PM
I need: Money....Lots and LOTS of money!
I find: Life to be rather difficult when you become an adult.
I want: A LOT of things, but mostly, I just want to live comfortably without fear of not having enough money to buy food or pay the rent.
I have: A wonderful husband and a happy dog and a crappy job.
I wish: I could make people do the things I want them to do. Sadly, I cannot force people to do things against their will.
I love: My family, friends, Sean, and Mark Wahlberg. (The answer to this has not changed, but I would like to add Skye to the list.)
I hate: Stupid People (This hasn't changed either. Although, my definition of "stupid people" has broadened.)
I miss: My big bro!
I fear: Being abducted by aliens. (Still the same answer)
I feel: Happy with the decisions I've made in my life in the past year. I feel I know myself a lot better than I used to and I'm no longer lying to myself about things.
I hear: Family Guy on the TV.
I smell: The Bath & Body Works Wallflower I plugged in yesterday after finding it on the shelf above the dryer.
I crave: Knowledge of the truth.
I search: For answers that will never be given.
I wonder: Will Sean and I ever be able to have children?
I regret: Being mean to the people I love and care about. (This hasn't changed either. I really need to work on that!)
When was the last time you ...
Smiled?: Just now when I thought about eating Frosted Flakes for dinner.
Laughed?: Reading a message on FB.
Cried?: Sad crying......a week ago on the anniversary of my dad's death. I was at work and when the time of his death came around (3:45p), I got teary-eyed.
Bought something?: I bought a new vacuum and showerhead at Walmart yesterday.
Danced?: I think I did a little dance at Marie's house on Friday night. I always do some sort of dance while I'm there.
Were sarcastic?: I'm never sarcastic! ;) (Same answer....)
Kissed someone?: I guess I kissed Sean at some point today. Haha!
Talked to an ex?: Several years ago. I have no use to talk to any ex anymore.
Had a nightmare?: This past week. I have nightmares all the time! Always have.
A Last time for everything ...
Last book you read: In full? Night. Currently Reading? Take the Cannoli.
Last movie you saw: I watched Going the Distance and Kick-Ass today.
Last song you heard: Rolling in the Deep by Adele. I'm not sure it the "last" song I heard, but it's the song I've heard the most this weekend.
Last thing you had to drink: Kroger Water! OH yeah! (Sad, but this is the same answer)
Last time you showered: Yesterday. I was lazy today.
Last thing you ate: I just ate my Frosted Flakes!
Do You ...
Smoke?: No. Ew!
Do drugs?: Does once in the last six years count as "doing" drugs? Probably not.
Have sex?: Occasionally.....Poor Sean. Hahaha!
Sleep with stuffed animals?: No. I sleep with Sean who could be considered a stuffed animal.
Live in the moment?: I'm trying to be more that way than in the past. I can be very spontaneous! But on the contrary, I like to make plans. I'm a confusing girl.
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: I have a husband!
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: Yes....I live inside this gigantic teddy bear (This has not changed either)
Play an instrument?: I played trumpet in middle school and my dad taught me how to play the drums and I can play the keyboard with my right hand (Same answer.....)
Believe there is life on other planets?: It's stupid to believe we are all alone, but I don't think there is other life in this universe. And if there was, I'm afraid of them coming to Earth and abducting me.
Remember your first love?: Yeah of course I remember him. He was my first love after all.
Still love him/her?: Uh, no.
Read the newspaper?: I buy the Sunday paper for the coupons and I read news through FB, Twitter and other news websites.
Have any gay or lesbian friends?: I do and they are wonderful people! I love the gays! :)
Believe in miracles?: It's hard to say no because I believed myself to be a miracle all my life, but miracles are just not logical. I believe that things happen that people can't explain and that's ok, but it doesn't have to be labeled as a miracle.
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: I think it is possible, but you have to truly love the person you are with, which I do!
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: Hmmm......I can sometimes be tolerant. Other times...NOT AT ALL! (This is the same answer.)
Consider love a mistake?: No way.....you can sometimes think that, but it's never a mistake for real. (Same answer......)
Like the taste of alcohol?: After I discovered the wonderful and magical Margarita, I do! Beer is STILL disgusting though!
Have a favorite candy?: I try not to eat that much candy anymore. I still love my gummy things though.
Believe in astrology?: I find astrology entertaining. (Same answer)
Believe in magic?: I am always skeptical (Same answer)
Believe in God?: I believe that we cannot know whether or not there is a God. In short, the answer is No. (This took many, many years for me to actually admit, but seriously, it's difficult to believe in some big dude in the sky)
Pray?: Who am I going to pray to? Sean? LOL
Go to church?: No and I'm happier without it.
Have any secrets?: As much of an open book I am, I am full of secrets. You don't know me!
Have any pets: A beautiful mutt named Skye and I guess all the cats that have sex underneath my house.
Do well in school?: I am no longer in school.
Go to or plan to go to college?: I graduated from Georgia State University in 2007!
Have a major?: My major was Sociology.
Talk to strangers who instant message you?: I don't do the whole instant messenger thing anymore. None of my friends really use them anymore. I occasionally use FB Chat, but I only chat with FB friends on that.
Wear hats?: Eh.....no. I might wear one of Sean's hats if I'm having a greasy hair day.
Have any piercings?: I've had my ears pierced now about 5 times.....I'm going to stop trying so the answer is no...I don't have any. (Sadly, this answer has not changed)
Have any tattoos?: Nope and I don't really plan on ever getting one. (Same answer)
Hate yourself?: Naw.....I love myself. There are certain things about myself that I don't like, but I don't hate myself as a whole. (I still agree with this answer)
Have an obsession?: I obsess over everything that I find cool. It's not as expensive a problem as it used to be, but Facebook has definitely been an obsession for awhile now.
Have a secret crush?: Nope.....
Do they know yet?: If they did, it wouldn't be secret. Duh!
Collect anything?: I used to collect DVDs, but I have ran out of money. (Sadly, this is the same answer, as well)
Have a best friend?: My permanent and forever best friends are Sean and Bekkah (my sister). Everybody else that I've considered or consider a best friend are "Best Friends For Right Now" type of deals and that's okay!
Wish on stars?: Very occassionally.....I have to be in that type of mood (same answer)
Like your handwriting?: Well growing up I always thought I had horrible handwriting, but people always complimented me on having such awesome handwriting. Soooo I guess I like it now. (same answer)
Have any bad habits?: I still bite my nails and my habit of revealing way too much information about myself to people that don't need to know.
Care about looks?: Sort of but it's not that important to me. It's becoming more important to me and I'm not sure how I feel about that.
Boy/girlfriend's looks?: My husband is a cutie patootie!
Friends and other people?: My friends are very different in their looks. So I really don't care how they look. Why would I care how my friends look?
Believe in witches?: I AM a witch! MUHAHAHAHA! Just kidding....
Believe in Satan?: If there is no God, there is no Satan.
Believe in ghosts?: Yes......I'm scared of ghosts. Although, can there truly be ghosts if there is no afterlife?
001) What time are you starting this?: 9:29 pm
002) Name?: Sheena
003) Date of birth?: March 3
004) Sex?: female
005) Height?: 5'5"
006) Eye color?: Blue
007) Weight?: Nunya Business!
008) Location?: Nunya!
009) Where were you born?: Georgia
010) Have you ever failed a grade?: nope
011) If you have, what grade did you fail? nope
012) Do you have crush on someone?: Yes
013) Do you have a bf/gf?: I have a husband!
014) If so, what is their name: SEAN!
015) How long have you been together?: A total of six years!
016) What are you wearing right now?: Pajamas that I've been in ALL DAY!
017) Would you have sex before marriage?: Magically, I didn't. Hardest. Thing. Ever.
018) Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers?: Ew never! They were all old or female!
020) Do you smoke?: no
021) Do you drink?: Yes...I love me a margarita and my special jello!
022) Are you ghetto?: Sometimes I act sooo ghetto and sometimes I'm just another white girl (And the way I originally answered this question assumed that "ghetto" was a race issue. Shame on me for that one)
023) Are you a player?: Nope. Not at all.
024) What are your favorite colors?: Purple and Blue
025) What is your favorite animal?: Koala Bear
026) Do you have any birthmarks?: I have one in the shape of a heart on my inner right thigh
027) Have you ever gotten your ass kicked?: Yeah, but I kicked her butt right back
028) Who are your best friends? Sean and Bekkah. I answered this more fully earlier.
029) Have you ever beat someone up? Yes.......I felt bad about it too
030) Who do you talk to most on the phone?: I don't really talk much on the phone. I guess Marie and Kim Gray. That's sad bc I really don't talk much to them over the phone.
031) Have you ever been slapped?: Yes
032) Do you get online a lot?: Everyday! Pretty much the entire time from the point I get home from work until bedtime.
037) How easily do you trust people? WAYYYY too easily. I am too trusting to a fault. But I also have paranoia that contradicts that statement.
038) Have you ever lied to your best friends?: Not any major lies.....just like stupid little ones that don't matter much
039) Do you have a secret people would be surprised knowing?: Depends on the people! My choice to leave my church is major one that MANY people would be surprised to know. I wonder if any of those people will read this.
040) Would you ever sky dive?: HECK YEAH I would! That's like asking Pamela Anderson if she's ever had any work done. Not sure I would again though. Too much to risk.
041) Do you like to dance?: Yeah, but I have no rhythm
068) Have you ever been out of state?: Why of course I have
069) Do you like to travel?: I would like to do it more than I do right now. Since we do not have any children, we should be traveling more.
070) Have you ever been expelled from school?: Never
071) Have you ever been suspended from school?: No, but I have had in-school-suspension
071) Do you want to get out of your hometown?: I really SHOULD! I live a mile from where I grew up.
072) Are you spoiled?: I'm about as spoiled as a poor child can be. I never got everything I wanted, but I was waited on hand and foot growing up. My mommy loves me!
073) Are you a brat?: Only to my sister and Sean.
074) Have you ever been dumped?: No......I'm surprised I haven't
075) Have you ever gotten high?: How am I supposed to answer that question without incriminating myself? But yes, yes I have!
076) What's your favorite drink?: Dr. Pepper and Frozen Strawberry Margarita!
077) Do you like Snapple?: No
078) Do you drink a lot of water?: Yes I love ice water
079) What toothpaste do you use?: Colgate Total Plus Whitening
080) Do you have a cell phone or pager?: I have a cell phone
081) Do you have a curfew?: I am an adult living in my own house. No, I don't have a curfew. Sean doesn't even call when I'm out late, but my friends' husbands are always calling them.
082) Who do you look up to?: I still look up to my wonderful friends, but for completely different reasons!
083) Are you a role model?: I think I'm awesome, but I'm sure there are several people who do not agree.
085) What name brand do you wear the most?: I don't know.....Old Navy jeans?
086) What kind of jewelry do you wear?: I wear my wedding and engagement rings and that's about it
087) What do you have pierced?: Nothing
088) What do you want pierced?: Ears for the 20th time
089) Do you like taking pictures?: Yeah it's way fun
090) Do you like getting your picture taken?: Yeah.....I'm such a cheeser
091) Do you have a tan?: Yeah all natural baby!
092) Do you get annoyed easily?: Yes and especially when a certain co-worker doesn't know that it is incredibly annoying to pop and smack her gum.
093) Have you ever started a rumor?: Yes unfortunately and I felt REALLY REALLY horrible about it....I cried for days. (This situation was a LONG time ago and still applies as the only time I started a rumor)
094) Do you have your own phone/phone line?: I have my own cell phone and I guess my own house line that we don't answer.
095) Do you have your own pool?: No
096) Do you have any siblings?: a sister named Bekkah and a brother named Eric
097) Do you prefer boxers or briefs?: I would prefer Sean to wear boxers, but he wears the magic underwears.
098) Have you ever been played?: Yes I believe I have so I ended it before it went any further than it did
099) Have you ever played anyone?: Not that I'm aware of
100) Do you get along with your parents?: Yeah for the most part...my dad annoys the crap out of me, but I love him (This makes me sad to read this. I miss my dad and I wish I was nicer to him)
102) How do you vent your anger?: I usually get really red in the face and start screaming and crying.....then I'll get in my car and drive somewhere (This is still mostly accurate, but I have begun to be quiet when I'm angry now.)
103) Have you ever run away?: Naw not for real.....I always pretended like I did though
104) Have you ever been fired from a job?: Nope I've always quit. I did get laid off from the last one, but that's not the same as being fired.
105) Do you even have a job?: Yes at CTS High School. Seriously, this place might as well be HS. You are treated like a 12 year old.
106) Do you daydream a lot?: A little, but not nearly as much as I used to. I mainly daydream at work.
107) Do you have a lot of exes?: Just like 2 or 3.
108) Do you run your mouth?: I can.......so yeah sometimes
109) What do you want a tattoo of?: none
110) What do you have a tattoo of?: none
111) What are your favorite flowers?: Orchids
112) What does your ex bf/gf look like?: First one.....scrawny kid with red hair and like no tan whatsoever.........Second one.....kinda tallish,light brownish hair,pretty eyes,a little goatee,cute computer dude.....I swear I'm leaving a couple people out......they must have not mattered much
113) What does your most recent crush look like?: Like Sean *LOL*
114) Have you ever been bitched out?: Yeah of course Who hasn't?
115) When was the last time you bitched someone out?: I bitched Sean out today, but that's normal.
116) Are you rude? Not knowingly
117) What was the last compliment you received?: Sean thinks I'm beautiful. (And this still applies 5 years later)
118) Do you like getting dirty?: definitely not....I don't wash my hands every 5 minutes, but I really hate to get my hands dirty
119) Is your bellybutton an innie or outie?: DEEP innie! you can fit your whole fist in there
120) Are you flexible?: Not one bit
121) What is your heritage?: English, German, Irish
122) What is your lucky number?: 3, 33, 303
123) What does your hair look like right now?: Rather greasy from not being washed today.
124) Could you ever be a vegetarian?: I am currently a vegetarian. Why eat an animal when you have the option not to?
125) When was your last real heartbreak?: I'm not sure. I guess the last time was when my dad died in 07.
126) Describe your looks?: How about no and say we did? :)
127) If you had to completely dye your hair it'd be what color?: I need to do that. I guess light brown, but not the same stuff I used last time.
128) Would you ever date someone younger than you?: I have in the past, but I think I'm good to go right now.
129) Would you ever date someone older than you?: Sean is four years older, but acts 14 years younger
130) When was the last time you were drunk?: My 27th birthday! Mexico Lindo margaritas made me feel goooooooood!
131) When was the last time you went on a date?: We went on a 5 year anniversary trip to Chattanooga last weekend, so I'm going to count that!
135) Have you ever had an eating disorder?: No but when I was a teenager I always thought it would be cool if I did. I could never do it though.
136) Do you have one now?: no
137) How many rings until you answer the phone?: I never answer the home phone and my cell phone doesn't have rings.
138) Have you ever been skinny dipping?: In a hot tub! Many different hot tubs actually, but never a pool!
139) If yes, when was the last time?: Ummmm, whenever the last time we went to Gatlinburg was.
140) Do you look more like your mother or father?: My mama...I look like my dad too
141) Do you cry a lot?: I cry everytime someone makes me laugh hard.
142) Do you ever cry to get your way?: No
143) If you had to amputate one limb, what would it be?: Left arm right below the elbow
144) What phrase do you use most when on the phone?: Yeah dude
145) Are you the romantic type?: Lol....sadly, no. I'm trying to work on that!
146) Have you ever been chased by cops?: No
147) What do you like most about your body?: My eyes
148) What do you like least about your body?: My Butt
150) When was the last time you threw up?: A couple of weeks ago from coughing too much. It wasn't bad though.
151) In the opposite sex, do you prefer blondes or brunettes?: Blonde hair, blue eyed guys named Sean are HOT!
152) What do the shoes you last wore look like?: Skechers Shape Ups.....they're blue and gray with some pink
153) Do you ever wear shirts to show your belly?: Never
154) What about cleavage?: Sometimes....but I am very modest
155) Is your best friend a virgin?: Nope!
158) What color are your underwear right now?: Black, the opposite of white.
159) What theme does your room have?: My room does not have a theme. My room has the theme of lacking any kind of decoration.
160) What size shoe do you wear?: 8 - 8.5
161) What jewelry are you wearing now?: wedding rings
162) What is your screen name on AIM?: TyphoidWeave (weird name and I don't even remember the pw anymore)
163) Would you pick a wedgie in public?: Yeah, sadly, I have
164) How are you feeling right now?: A little tired, but not as tired as I normally am this late on a work night.
165) When was the last time you were at a party?: Hmmm a party........I guess it depends on what you consider a party.
166) Have you ever given a lapdance?: Nope There is no way I could do that (This is still true, although, I have tried and I got all self-conscious)
167) What do you sleep in?: t-shirt and basketball shorts
168) Has there ever been a rumor spread about you?: Yes and I really need to stop caring.
171) Would you marry for money?: I say no and I didn't.
172) What do you drive?: We have an 04 Saturn Ion and my 99 Honda Civic. I tend to drive the Ion more.
173) Have you ever given or received roadhead?: can't say that I have....and I can't believe I just answered that question.
174) Are you more of a mama or daddy's child?: Mama's Girl totally
177) When was the last time you cried in school?: I don't think I ever cried in college. Sometime in high school I guess.
179) For two million dollars, would you pose for Playboy?: HECK NOOOOO. Besides, who would pay ME 2 mil to do Playboy?
180) What time are you finishing this?: 10:13 PM
Sunday, July 09, 2006
Bzoink survey
45 of the most random things you probably never needed to know about someone | |
whats your name spelt backwards?: | aneehs |
What did you do last night?: | went grocery shopping |
The last thing you downloaded onto your computer?: | Yahoo Messenger |
Have you ever licked a 9 volt battery?: | yes |
Last time you swam in a pool?: | July 4th |
What are you wearing?: | blue t-shirt, blue gym shorts |
How many cars have you owned?: | 3 |
Type of music you dislike most?: | Jazz |
Are you registered to vote?: | Yes |
Do you have cable?: | Yes |
What kind of computer do you use?: | Compaq and IBM |
Ever made a prank phone call?: | no |
You like anyone right now?: | of course |
Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?: | of course, already have |
Furthest place you ever traveled?: | California |
What's your favorite comic strip?: | Garfield |
Do u know all the words to the national anthem?: | pretty close |
Shower, morning or night?: | morning |
Best movie you've seen in the past month?: | Failure to Launch |
Favorite pizza toppings?: | pepperoni & cheese |
Chips or popcorn?: | chips |
What cell phone provider do you have?: | Cingular :( |
Have you ever smoked peanut shells?: | no |
Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?: | no |
Orange Juice or apple?: | neither |
Who were the last people you sat at lunch with?: | my husband |
favorite chocolate bar?: | Mr. Goodbar |
Who is your longest friend and how long?: | Amanda........since I was 5 |
Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?: | ew never |
Have you ever won a trophy?: | no |
Favorite arcade game?: | Pacman |
Ever ordered from an infomercial?: | no way |
Sprite or 7-UP?: | Sprite |
Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school/work?: | yes to work |
Last thing you bought at Walgreens?: | gummi worms |
Ever thrown up in public?: | no |
Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love?: | finding true love |
Do you believe in love at first sight?: | I believe in lust at first sight |
SPONGEBOB OR JIMMY NEUTRON?: | spongebob |
Did you have long hair as a young kid?: | sometimes |
What message is on your voicemail machine?: | a normal one |
Where would you like to go right now?: | bed |
Whats the name of your pet?: | Christopher |
What kind of back pack do you have, and what's in it?: | Jansport, notebook and textbooks |
What do you think about most?: | Sean |
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Thursday, June 01, 2006
We're Married!!!!
We finally got married on May 12, 2006 in the Atlanta Temple.
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more to come...
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Tuesday, March 07, 2006
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